Stuck in a rut. It's official--I have been stuck in a rut. Somewhere between keeping up with emails, changing diapers, going to the grocery store, and trying to stay out of the heat, I got stuck in a rut. At first I thought this was a widespread malady brought on by this endless summer--a heat and humidity induced fugue that left everyone in its wake fanning themselves and refusing to leave the house.
But today I realized--it's just me. Everywhere I look lately, someone I know is doing something amazing. Someone is starting a new business I'm sure is going to be the next big thing, someone is buying the home of my dreams, someone just updated their website and it looks fresh and incredible. People are traveling--someone is going to a fabulous island to shoot a wedding in a location you only see in the in-flight magazine, someone is wine tasting, someone is buying tickets to Europe. When I look on Instagram, I see people being the mom I'd like to be--taking their kids bike riding or rock climbing, teaching flash cards, getting a pedicure while holding their smiling, content toddler on their lap (seriously, HOW???).
But then I remember that maybe nothing is actually stopping me from doing any of these things! Maybe tomorrow I can take Locke somewhere new and a little adventurous. Maybe that business idea I've been kicking around for years could actually come to life. Maybe my house is perfect for my family and I should work harder to fix the things I can (like the laundry that's been piling up or framing the prints I bought months ago).
I really don't think I'll ever be able to get a pedicure with a baby on my lap though. That's for superhumans.
So, I've decided to get out of this rut. Today I am going to start with calling the friend I haven't talked to in too long, and then tomorrow, make some headway on posting the blog entries for weddings and other shoots I've been working on. I'm going to schedule lunch with the person who might be able to inspire me to take new ideas to the next level, and I'm going to try to look like the girl Jeff married (okay, at 6 months pregnant, that one probably won't happen. But maybe I'll do my hair). I am going to start investing in the things that matter and saying no to the things that don't.